多少はその気

またぞろ自分の好きな短編集を目の前に置きはじめた。

　日野啓三『天窓のあるガレージ』、井上光晴『だれかの関係』、丸山健二『水に映す』

　読むわけではない。
　一種のイメージトレーニングである。多少は書かなければいけないという気にはなっているらしい。

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　と書きながらじきに行き詰まって、ジョン・レノンの「God」と「Happy Xmas (War Is Over) 」と「 Imagine 」の３曲だけを繰り返し、しつこいほど聴く。
　「God」ではdon't believe、don't believeだけが耳に入ってくるだけだが、それだけで十分。「Happy Xmas (War Is Over) 」はクリスマス・ソングが大っ嫌いな私が唯一聴くことのできるクリスマス・ソング。まったく季節はずれだが、素っ頓狂な私にはどこかふさわしい。

「God」

God is a concept,
By which we can measure,
Our pain,
I'll say it again,
God is a concept,
By which we can measure,
Our pain,
I don't believe in magic,
I don't believe in I-ching,
I don't believe in bible,
I don't believe in tarot,
I don't believe in Hitler,
I don't believe in Jesus,
I don't believe in Kennedy,
I don't believe in Buddha,
I don't believe in mantra,
I don't believe in Gita,
I don't believe in yoga,
I don't believe in kings,
I don't believe in Elvis,
I don't believe in Zimmerman,
I don't believe in Beatles,
I just believe in me,
Yoko and me,
And that's reality.
The dream is over,
What can I say?
The dream is over,
Yesterday,
I was dreamweaver,
But now I'm reborn,
I was the walrus,
But now I'm John
And so dear friends,
You just have to carry on,
The dream is over.

HAPPY X'MAS(War is over)